Clearing / Protecting my Aura
It’s becoming clear to me I need to learn how to:
a) Protect my aura each time I leave the house or interact with others.
b) Clear my aura at the end of each night of everyone’s energy that’s hooked into my field.
I have a Pisces moon in astrology, which is closely linked with my Pisces south node. It’s difficult to differentiate between the two — on one hand, Piscean qualities of being compassionate, spiritual, and somewhat, boundary-less — with others and the universe — comes very natural to me. It’s easy for me to merge with the other and absorb their energy like a sponge.
It’s both my instinctual nature, but also my karmic lesson. Just because something comes easily to me, doesn’t mean it’s good for me. Doesn’t mean it’s helping me grow and evolve as a person.
My Virgo north node is about tending to the body: it’s about structure, boundaries, being grounded in the earth. It’s the logical and practical counterpart to Pisces irrational and emotional temperament.
As I have been on this healing journey, I’m feeling even more sensitive to taking on other people’s energy. I’ve been craving solitude. I’ve been needing the spaciousness to process all these unexpected emotions and realizations which have been surfacing.
As such, I’m being tested in all areas of my life in how to speak my needs to others. Particularly on how to say “no.”
An exercise my acupuncturist gave me recently when it comes to protecting/shielding my aura — to envision my aura filled with roses, to allow whatever color speaks to me to surround my energetic field. Whenever I have to speak my needs, have a difficult conversation, be honest with someone — to envision these roses surrounding my aura, protecting me from any unwanted energy that might be thrown back at me. To really understand the difference between WHAT IS ME vs WHAT IS THE OTHER.
How would it feel to speak my needs and not feel influenced by someone else’s response? How would it feel to be so solid in my own energy that others could not penetrate or throw me off kilter?
In terms of clearing other people’s energy — I’ve been taking epsom salt baths most nights, allowing the water to wash away the day and what doesn’t belong to me. I also feel drawn to purchasing a selenite wand to clear my aura (or perhaps to carry some crystals around with me during the day as protective stones).
A meditation I’ve loved in the TBM pathway is Energetic Boundaries, which is basically an exercise similar to the one my acupuncturist gave me — in using a color to surround your aura, blocking influence and infiltration of others’ energy.
My mind is somewhat frustrated because it thought I had “learnt” all these lessons before. I first started getting into self-help at the age of 21 — I remember doing shadow work and reparenting work and thought I wouldn’t need to come back to these practices. As I was sharing this with a friend the other day, she was like, “you were literally still a child!” I don’t think I was ready at 21 — or had the maturity — to go as deep into this work back then because I was still growing up. I was still in the throws of binge drinking and drug-taking and was not taking care of my body. As I am now reckoning with healing my physical body — now I can finally get into the emotional stuff. Alongside having a fully developed frontal lobe, and having had more experiences throughout my 20s, I can now deal with — or face — the patterns and conditioning which lay underneath the surface.
The spiral of healing continues. Just when you think you’re “done,” a new layer reveals itself asking you go deeper. I know for some it seems heavy, but for me it feels empowering: I’m peeling back the layers and stripping myself to the core.